2k+ and the unbearable boredom of being

hm. add another 1000 since may 25th. but i haven't written in ages.

i haven't actually done anything recently. apart from sitting at home, mind numbingly bored. haven't glanced at a paper. don't know what's happening in the world. am worried about the future.

not in a "carpe diem" sieze stuff by it's horns kinda way.
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      though why someone would want to seize anything by the horn, puzzles me. i mean, we're talking about something that evolution has dictated would grow horns right. and then you go about waving red flags at colorblind animals and seizing them by pointed horns. it seems rather pointless to me.

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i guess this is the same sort of people who seize the day, put their nose to the grindstone and laugh their pants off while talking through their hat. contortionists that is.

but i'm in a very unseizing mood today. i could rouse myself to probably reheat lunch, but that is, i think, it. (to many commas? sue me..)

time is stretching in fron of me like a vast undecided ocean. time can wait. it's not like tide or anything, that refuses to wait for man. some very unwise soul once said that tide and taxes wait for no man. we could all die and time could spin by and the doit will still be issuing lists of "six signs you have money." etc.

i think i'll take nap.

i might come back and finish this post and lead it to what promises to be a very illogical conclusion. but i read the heisenberg principle yesterday. since i can't simultaneously predict the motion and position of molecules to any reasonable level of accuracy, if i walk too fast, my liver might just change positions or disappear altogether. if it existed in the first place. i've never actually opened myself up and seen it. according to schrodinger it might not exist.

but all that is in the very un-near future. in the short run, i see myself taking a nap. and in the long run, as the man said, we're all dead.

so pay the piper and pass the chips. wisdom doesn't always come with age.
sometimes age comes alone.